"I've been too honest with myself I should have lied like everybody else."

Men

I know we can be fuckwits but don't hate all of us. (;_;)

Heartbreak

Failing(or forgetting) to Care about Yourself.

I'm not depressed.

I think that's sort of a harsh way of putting it, but I think I can agree with it.

God, I fucking typed up a whole fucking thing but it deleted so I'll put it in a short fucking post.
OH MY FUCKING GOD THAT PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF.

THIS FUCKING EMOTE DOESN'T EVEN LOOK ANGRY.

Withdrawal, heartbreak, worthlessness, ugly, conspiracy theorism, boredom, fear.

That's about what it is.

Right now it's loneliness. Also the tension in my family, and the breakdown of relationships.

Well, my mom is seriously screwed up so that effected me a bit and where I'm staying right now isn't the greatest either.

I have this pity crap going on though. I didn't even realize that I was doing it until some school therapist told me. I do things purposely to 'call out for help',(I love how a grown person tells a minor that she, herself, is calling out for help but never offers shit, cracks me up) even after I recognized it it's not like I can grow up over night and "suck it up". Besides that's not the only thing wrong with me just one of many. woohoo for self-pity and depression.

being back stabbed by older friends that i loved and my inability to make meaningful connections to other people drove me into depression a few years before and not much has changed since then.
also pondering if my tiredness is responsible for my depression or my depression is responsible for my tiredness, i dont know. the only thing i know that its physically draining for me to do anything different than sitting around and doing nothing.

its even draining for me to sit around thats why ive choosen the mood drained, i pretty much can feel for your state

Lack of a social life, gender dysphoria and many negative life experiances.

Gender dysphoria? That's really interesting.

My relatively pessimistic view of life and the fact that I spend 90% of my time inside. :/

As far as I know it's innate.

myself and people in general. and bad luck i guess.

♦ Genetic predisposition to severe depression and panic/anxiety disorders
♦ Always preparing for the worst has turned into a chronic inability to hope
♦ Severe abandonment issues complicated by several psychologically abusive interpersonal relationships during crucial formative years
♦ All-consuming guilt that might have been innate, but that probably wasn't helped by spending years in Catholic school
♦ Extremely, extremely low sense of self-worth
♦ Inability to cope with difficult life experiences except through harmful mediums that cause further isolation and feelings of worthlessness
♦ Constant struggling with beliefs and meaning
♦ Strong sensitivity to the emotions and suffering of others
♦ General failure at meeting social expectations and norms

I'm pretty sure the inability to hope and the low sense of self-worth are the hardest parts of this all for me to deal with.

I like your new avatar, mementomori.

Sorry, I'm the king of posting off topic.

I can really relate to a lot of your reasons; but I'm too depressed to talk about depression right now.

, it's cool. Garma-kun appreciates the love.

inability to cope with reality

I hope this thread isn't actually asking "IS" and really means "WHAT" is the cause, as everything has a cause .

I lack the ability to lie to myself convincingly.