I tried to attempt suicide numerous times from about 8 to now. My problem is, I always get scared and can't do it.

i've been hospitalized twice and attempted about half a dozen times. i can't say that i wouldn't try again.

I wanted to jump out of the window from the 10th floor when i was 16 yrs old, but i could even get myself standing on the windowsill, so cant even count that closely as an attempt I'm such a fucking looser.

I would probably fuck it up if I ever tried to commit suicide. I would actually be pleased if I succeeded for finally being able to do something right.

How would you know if you succeeded?

Urgh, I knew someone would come in with that. I was sort of half-joking. Though if you want an actual answer I suppose I mean if there was an afterlife. Which there isn't. Therefore my post is illogical, etc, etc...

I just wanted to nit-pick.

You're such a pedant.

Maybe this is the Afterlife...

If it is, I am not impressed.

I could never commit suicide. Once you're dead, you're a corpse, and that's it. Nothing else. I've thought about it, but I've never gotten to the point where I'd prefer complete nothingness over suffering, because, as incredibly cheesy as it sounds, tomorrow is another day. If someone truly knows they have nothing worth living for, whether it be present or future, then I can understand, but that's never the case because you can not predict the future. Life is fucking beautiful and amazing. We're lucky to be alive. Take a hike in the forest for a few hours, paint, draw, read, write, listen to music, write music, eat until you puke -- if you still want to kill yourself, I'll hand you a gun.

I understand I might have just pissed some of you off. Sorry. Just my two cents.

I ended up going for the 'guaranteed' way, rather than some impulsive 5-second gunshot dealio (not that i could get a gun anyway ). I went 48 hours without food/water, during which i watched Fight Club (for the first time, at last), then only went and had a bleedin' epiphany of sorts!

Got a new outlook on life and such now, and am now accepting of pain rather than wishing death because of it. I'm stronger now. If you're never wanted to die, how can you ever truly have wanted to live? And other such karmic slogans

Althe,

I haven't attempted suicide but I've been told I should.

The only experience with suicide was that one of my parents attempted suicide when I was in my teens--I was the one who found that parent unconscious and called the ambulance in time. Also, I married someone with a long history of suicide and depression under the illusion that I could rescue her. That relationship did not survive a year and I have not seen her for almost a decade. This also happened in U.S.A.

I wouldn't make the presumption to offer you advice; I just wanted to thank you for sharing your experience and hope the best for you.
I commiserate because I've begun to entertain thoughts of suicide for the first time. So far it's only been confined to ideation and I haven't acted on those thoughts.

John Stuart Mills once wrote: "[i]t is better to be a human being dissatisfied than a pig satisfied; better to be Socrates dissatisfied than a fool satisfied." However, I more than understand your desire for ignorant bliss.

Thanks again for sharing.

I have a hard time believing that I am any less ignorant than others.

Case in point:

... This is my first time back in a while. Currently I am kinda annoyed and want to have a bitchfest, but I really have no one to talk to at this moment, so that is why I am back. I got in an argument with my mother, and basically she said that I am fat, ugly, useless and lucky to be alive. But I really don't feel like that. I have wanted to commit suicide for a while, but never followed though. I feel that it would be in everyone's best interest if I was no longer alive.

I don't understand this whole selfish thing about committing suicide, or how it is stronger to stay alive. I am thinking about committing suicide, but maybe I not... I dunno... I just feel mixed right now. Isn't that odd?

I understand what you mean. I feel all over the place right now, but, at the moment, I feel like no longer being alive with benefit everyone. I don't understand how it is selfish, especially since all I hear is how we have to think about "those who love us" and how they're going to "suffer". Isn't it selfish of them to think about their own reaction, instead of the person who want to commit suicide? It's our life, so, I believe we should be allowed to take it. If we couldn't, suicide would be non-existent. I don't understand how it is stronger to stay alive at all, it seems like mere torture, quite honestly.