Nothing much, you?

Okay, I was just kidding with that answer. I hate those sorts of replies. I'm slightly worried about all the work that will have to be done this year - this will undoubtedly be the toughest year of school yet. Fortunately, there are only 140 days until the final exam - after which I will finally be free from the shackles of the education system


What about you, Kuri? What has been on your mind?

I'm actually only 18





Ah, you'll do fine, I'm sure of it. Don't bother taking a fully-prepared script with, just speak freely and imagine that she's a thread on HikiCulture, and you're just posting a post with your mouth instead of the keyboard

Although sure, you might want to think about what you want to talk to her about before you go and see her. Perhaps write down a few short bullet-points.

Cool, ur the same age as me.

Hahaha you're in your last year of schooling, then?
And there are only 140 days of school there? ?




I'd rather not say in a public forum for everyone including Chair to see. ^-^"
Thanks for asking.

I was texting Jun... and he said "hey sis, there's something I need to tell you..."
At first I thought he had yet ANOTHER girlfriend so I just said "okies, what is it?"

Before I tell you, please know that he's a kind guy. He has an anger problem, a big one, but he does his best to control it. Along with a few other things, I promised him that I'd move to Maryland and help him fix these problems. I promised him I wouldn't give up.

This is what he said:

"Sis, back in Korea, I was messed up. My family needed money so I started selling stuff and became a dealer. I thought I saw a student from my school, and I attacked him. I pulled him into the bathroom and punched him to the ground, kicked his jaw, and pushed his head into the toilet. I asked him if he had snitched, but he could barely talk because of his broken jaw. I threatened to drown him if he did. He said that he was sorry and didn't mean to, but I didn't care. I kicked him some more and broke three of his ribs.

The next day, his friends tried challenging me to stand up for him. My crew and I fucked them up and sent three to the hospital, almost killing one. We walked away like it was nothing.

When I got into highschool, I was worse. I jumped one of my teachers for embarrassing me in front of my class. I sent her to the hospital with a fractured arm, and a broken rib. I don't even remember how she embarrassed me. I almost killed a kid because he looked at me wrong.

I can't even tell you all the stuff I did in one day. I could write a book.

We've been friends for a long time, and I thought you should know this. When I say I have anger problems-this is what I mean. My own parents are afraid to get me angry. But you've helped me a lot. You're the only person that calms me down. Thank you sis. Saranghae."

It's like... I don't know what to think of this... I knew he had really bad anger problems, and I knew he had a bad past, but he never told me any of this. I just thought he got into a few fights back in high school... It just makes me wonder, what else has he been keeping from me?



On a lighter note, here's something I thought was funny:

Yori:So have you come up with something to call me yet?
Kuri:Psh. Shut up. No. It's hard-Google sucks!
Yori:Hehe babo.
Kuri: >_________<" jerk.
Yori:What do you want me to call you?
Kuri:um...Kristen?
Yori:no I mean something cute.
Kuri: >:0

What's been bothering me lately is that I don't have any time to finish watching these anime shows that I'm backlogged on. Either I have schoolwork or my brother's wasting time online. Dammit!

Where the heck is hypnos? i miss him.

Don't you have him on MSN? He told me that he's been down.

Aww, so sweet. Well I m back (-ish), I was really ill again recently so I ve just been pretty much lying in bed fading in and out of consciousness for a lot of the time. I still feel terrible but i think i m past the worst of it now.

My frequent mood swings have been driving me crazy and no, I'm not pregnant. I wish i could just stay in an indifferent mood instead of going up and down so often.

Lately I've been wondering if I'll ever get my life on the path I want it to be on. I don't want to be jobless leech forever.
Also, my relationship with my mother is constantly there, waiting in the back of my mind for any chance to surface.

Mostly that I'm unemployed and kind of useless.

Hey, cheer up bud. I doubt that you're 'useless'.

My computer D:
My boyfriend may or may not be coming home soon. They just won't give him a clear freaking answer.

trying to figure out what to do with life after highschool... not really mattering

The same as a lot of people have said: feelings of worthlessness, don't know what to do with my life, worried I won't amount to anything, and other things like that.

More and more I have felt that way... I'm so pressured to do something with my life, yet anything I am interested in, I seem to be unable to do. My next plan is to take some college classes, get a certificate... but could I really handle the hard courses and overwhelming stress? I really doubt it. High school was bad enough, that is why I left early.

Same thing. The sense of worthlessness, jobless with no money and I have to leech of my family. Even if I get a job I may not be able to handle it. I have ergophobia. And my weight problem. I need to get rid of the extra fat. Gained 8kg since last year.

The feeling of always failing
Depression
My Social Phobia (I can't even say hello to my other relatives)

I'm unemployable, and even if i was to get a job i'd probably give up before long. I'm not necessarily useless but i may as well. I have no idea what i want. I'm alone but when i get the chance not to be, i back out of it.

Sounds a lot like what's been bothering me. Hang in there, man.

Thanks, you too.

Every time a cute stranger approaches me I can't help but come off like a bitch (Give them a dirty look then look away or etc) just because I'm too nervous to have a conversation with them. I think I'll always be alone... ( so embarrassing)

Mostly something to do with the fact that I'm tired of paying rent and bills and being stuck in the same country for my whole life because of not being able to afford a move.
Also, that I can't afford to go to college, and I can't find something I'm really passionate about, and everyone my age is nearly finished university, or in their final year.
I feel like I've been left behind by everyone. My family have given up on me because I never contact them, and when I do I'm so awkward and quiet that we never have a sufficient conversation.
I've pushed all my friends away and I have no motivation to go out and make new ones, or retie old bonds.
I feel like I'll be stuck in the same place, the same discount-shop job, the same terrible financial situation for my entire life.